Exam fever!

My cousin is preparing for his higher secondary exams, considered one of the bookmark stages for all the students, at least in India.
Exams are just round the corner and he is on his toes, mugging up, writing down and revising dozens of king size books.
His waking up at 4 am took me back to my study era, which was almost more than a decade back from now.
I would need revision of the entire syllabus, a day before or on the day of the exam, otherwise my short term memory would hit me real hard.
This would mean very very scanty to almost no hours of sleep, the night before the exam.
Waking up at 3 am was the toughest part, specially in the coldest of the winters, when everyone else around you is snoring at their highest pitches, snuggled in a warm blanket.
Why God why only me? I would always feel, but did I have an option, of course NO.
I remember, the revision schedule used to be so tight, that even a 10 minute snooze would mean 1 section is missed, and if the same one made an appearance in the question paper, there would be nothing more to regret.
Making tea used to depend on the revision speed, if it happened to be on target or ahead of it, only then would I get the tea. Yeah, I was a strict supervisor to myself!
Finally an hour before the exam, would come the wind up list, or sometimes 2nd revision of the most important items, and this sometimes was extremely rare phenomenon, especially in the engineering days, when there used to be too much on the plate to digest even once.
Then there used to be a special checklist of items for just 10 minutes before the exam time – this would usually comprise of the formulae or numerical stuff which I knew my volatile memory would not withhold for too long.
Finally after entering the examination hall would come the few minutes of relaxation to the over dumped brain. Only for the few minutes till answer sheets were circulated, could the brain heave a sigh of relief.
Then came the real moment when question paper would land up on desk – hands, eyes and brain would then be the heroes of the battlefield. They would fight a war to put up all the efforts on the sheet of paper, as this one sheet of paper would be the deciding factor of the entire journey ahead and the destination.

Today it has been almost 11 years to my service, but I remember, until recently, I would wake up to the nightmares, of today being the exam day and I have not studied anything.

Gone are the days! But unlike the rest, I surely don’t wish to revisit these set of days again. Although I agree, they had a charm of their own, I would admit I am happy that they are gone.

I am happy, to be on the otherside of the wheel now, where I get to snore to the highest of my pitch, snuggled in a warm blanket on a cozy winter morning. Ahh, that blessed feeling and to add to it, tomorrow is Saturday, so no alarms too.
Happy weekend to all!

Puppy love!

He was damn cute. I fell in love with him as soon as l saw him, even more when I held him. It was definitely love at first sight. Giving him away brought tears to my eyes, but did I have an option, no. Adopting a puppy was not possible this time.

He was amongst the last 2 left to be adopted, of total 80 for the day. Adopted ones were not allowed to touch, he was allowed to be held as he was not adopted yet. The tiny creature silently sat in everyone’s hands that tried to hold him and pet him. His tiny eyes looked tired but there were no signs of complaints. He was not even named yet, ‘Boy number 3’ is all that his tag read, they said he was too tiny to be named too. He was too tiny to understand all that was going on, that he was going to get a permanent home today.

Hope he gets the best home and most loving family!

Secret admirer!

His smile could always make my day
Magic spell on day so gray
My memory could never erase it away
Recalling and blushing like a teenager may

His soothing voice I could never forget
It still does in the background play
Picks me up from the routine day
Drops me off the la la land away

His words would take my worries away
To find solace in all he had to say
I would just Sit back, relax and pray
and see my problems fade away

Sincere attention he would  always pay
To everything i had ever to say
Drives me crazy even today
Even more in love with him i stay

I wish I had some one like thee
For the beautiful journey to see
There is always a hopeful ray
Till then I be the secret admirer may..

Letting go!

Today as I let you go,
I have absolutely no ego,
No fretting over denial,
Just a number less to dial.

I instead feel so clear,
Back to my own, carefree attire,
Free to be as I desire,
Unbothered if you would admire

No mind games, to please you
No false hopes, to seek you
No finding ways, to cross paths
No waiting for your text backs

Life is as simple as it should be
Today as I let you go
I feel so light and free
To be once again back to real me!

This is today’s real feel, you see
there is no sarcasm indeed.
It was never meant to be,
True adieus are not so easy to bid!

Not so good friday!

Some days are just annoying, irritating, exasperating, infuriating, tiring and maddening. Each and every task you take up or that falls upon you like Newton’s apple, has to go wrong. Are the stars to blame, or is it the wrong note set at the very start of the day, that propagates throughout the day, spoiling it in its entirety? Whatever be the reason, today was one such day that pestered me and forced me to rant about it aloud.

The day commenced with mild headache. It was probably the consequence of browsing through the mobile phone, as soon as I opened my eyes. Oh, but don’t I do the same everyday? Yes I do, but who knows, may be today I opened my eyes some degrees wider, a second or two before they could accurately adjust to the pricking bright light :|. I soon realized, this headache is not letting go of me so easily; it is here to stay.

Why do people eat apple in office bus? Can’t they spare 5 minutes from their super tight schedules and eat it at home and then board the bus? Or can’t they just excuse me and find any other seat that is not in close proximity to me? That crunching sound is too irritating and believe me, I could hear it even with my earphones on and songs played at highest possible decibel, my phone could emit.

Next, I met an annoying person at the bus bay. When your head is being continuously hammered from inside, all you wish for, is silence and peace and not any infuriating conversations.
Waving at me from a distance, I could actually envisage him saying “Hello, I am here to spoil your peaceful walk to the office building.” After an obligatory Hello, I said I have an important phone call to make, thinking he will walk away and leave me alone. But No! He decided to ignore my ignoring him and continued to walk. Plus, I had to make a forceful call to someone too.

Headache was now getting increasingly onerous. Checked my bag for a packet of Crocin tablets, but there wasn’t any. Hurtled straight to the chemist shop in campus, only to find it closed, scheduled to open 2 hours later, leaving me with no alternative but to bear the pain. Coffee, food, eye exercises – nothing could budge the pain. It probably loved being my companion.

Why are all the meetings planned far away from your building only on the day you wear heels? Wearing a pair of heels in a frenzy, proved to be completely dreadful today. Meetings with insufficient lead times, make your planned work go for a toss. Plus, when you have headache and leg ache they seem even worse. Additionally, if they end up handing over no brainer documents and sheets to complete, nothing can sound more terrible.

Needless to say, all the additional work made me stay late at work. At the end of the day, I was so knackered that I couldn’t even entertain the thought of hitting the gym. Guilt and regret that comes from inability to go to gym, when the scale has just started going down is beyond explanation. Hope those who have gone through this will agree.

To end the day on a less negative, if not on a positive note, I decide to grab a soothing cup of frappe from nearby coffee shop. Ah, but there is a fly in the ointment yet again! There is no one to serve me, the person supposedly has gone to collect a courier. I am sitting here, waiting for him, for more than 20 minutes now, penning my painful day down, but there are no signs of his return. I think, I should just leave now and accept today is not my day.

The day was a far cry from conventional Friday. Though it was an awful day, upcoming weekend appears to me like a light at the end of the tunnel. Hope it helps replenish my levels of positivity.


Today post workout, I start feeling a bit dizzy. I think of just giving up on the long walk to bus bay to catch office bus and decide to book a cab instead, to quickly reach home. Gym is around 5 – 7 minutes walk from office gate, so I just book the cab, as I head out of the gym and start walking. As I begin walking, the feeling of discomfort starts growing and I finally decide to sit back and relax for a while on the nearby bench and not create a scene by collapsing somewhere in the middle of the road, that too in office premises.
Cab has already arrived, I get call from the driver “Madam I am here, I can wait for maximum 5 minutes. If you don’t come by then, cab will be cancelled and amount will be deducted.” I tell him to cancel as I am unwell and cannot reach in next 5 minutes for sure. He calls me again in a minute. “Madam there is some problem with the mobile application. I am unable to cancel, but I am gone, amount will be deducted when my application starts responding.” I say okay and disconnect.
I drink some water, relax for a while and then head straight to the cafeteria. I feel better after eating and it is almost the time for the next bus, so I finally take the next office bus to get back home.
After I reach home, I get a call from an unknown number asking if I am okay, as the cab I had booked has met with an accident. Taken aback by the news I answer “I am okay, I had to cancel the cab as I could not reach in time.” I am not in position to ask any further questions and I just hang up.
I don’t have any more details on the gravity of the accident or where it took place, all I know is I was blessed and saved from a mishap today and that the “destiny” has played a major role. I realized that the things that you are destined to, do happen no matter how hard you try to stop them from happening and vice versa.
I was saved from an accident, while I was disturbed by a mere feeling of discomfort. I did learn a lesson for sure, to not moan about petty things in life.
To believe in God; he does see a bigger picture, while we all can only see a limited part of it.
Sometimes the reasons behind certain circumstances in life aren’t revealed in a jiffy, but in longer run as the truth unfolds, we do realize that everything happened for good. Trust His decisions and gracefully accept what is in the destiny.