Me time!

It was knackering and irritable Friday. It started with literally dragging myself to accompany a friend for breakfast and then just managing to skip everything else after – lunch, afternoon tea and conversations with fellow colleagues.

I spent the day like a fly on the wall, blankly staring at either the cellphone or laptop screen and trying to appear busy in something in order to avoid conversations with those around me. When clock hit 5, i just grabbed my bag, didn’t even entertain the thought of walking till the busbay to catch office bus, booked a cab instead and hurtled home straight.

This was not normal me. The normal rambunctious me would never have skipped participating in games, would have already made plans for the weekend with gusto and would have enjoyed the Friday to the fullest.

The project had closed down 2 weeks back and the new project was yet to begin, which meant there was no work pressure, neither was the physical stress to blame. But there was surely something going on in the mind since few days, which was beyond comprehension, at least at this point in time, but was definately weighing on me like ton of bricks.

It was past 11.30 pm, but I could not fall asleep, there was lot of restlessness which was keeping me up and stressed. I realised I needed to get over this snake bite and the only person who could expel the venom out of me was me myself.

Ideally I would have headed for a long walk to be able to talk to myself and clear up my mind. But today I was totally drained out and additionally at 11.30 pm I was not sure how safe the streets of Pune would be to walk alone. So I just wimped out and decided to drive instead.

Watchman stopped me at the gate saying 1 lane will be closed for road repairs post 1 am and I may not be able to drive back in till 6 am if I don’t return by then. I thought to myself “that is ample time” and just thanked him and left.

Roads were all calm and quiet with very few vehicles around. Perfect crescent moon, clear sky, bright stars and slight chill in the air made up for an apt setup for me to clear up my mind and soul. The peaceful drive was helping me gradually remove all the chaos from my heart and fill it up with freshness and newfound zeal. It seemed as if moon, stars and the quiet were all there to give me my confident self back.

I could see my irritated face slowly morph into a  smiling one and I realized it was now good time to head back home. On the gate watchman waved back asking “Madam, did you get what you were looking for?” and I happily nodded.

The much needed “me time” had served as catharsis for me. I was glad I did my “me time” therapy on time and didn’t spend the weekend sulking.

Letting go!

Today as I let you go,
I have absolutely no ego,
No fretting over denial,
Just a number less to dial.

I instead feel so clear,
Back to my own, carefree attire,
Free to be as I desire,
Unbothered if you would admire

No mind games, to please you
No false hopes, to seek you
No finding ways, to cross paths
No waiting for your text backs

Life is as simple as it should be
Today as I let you go
I feel so light and free
To be once again back to real me!

In love with the rainy season!

Someone recently happened to ask me – ‘Which is your favorite month?’ and it took me almost no time to blurt the answer out ‘August’.

I have always had a whirlwind romance with rainy season and for that matter, all the rainy months are apple of my eye. Each one adds its own flavor to present the dainty dish.

June marks the onset with lightning and thunder. It adds its own scent too, in the form of ‘petrichor’.
July is its boom period. Heavy rain pours being its true charm.
August has the perfect blend of not little and not too much rain. Sun and rain manifest a cordial relation to embellish August.
September waves it a good bye with serene tungsten lighting and lightning and thunders yet again.

May be it is the amount of rains that makes August special for me. As if sun and rain keep playing hide and seek and rainbow is the nature’s way of calling out “Olly olly oxen free”.

The green carpet that gets laid as soon as it starts drizzling makes everything around, look like a colorful landscape. Every nook and corner seems decorated. This makes the setup perfect for some wonderful outings. Plan a hike – where you get to completely submerge in nature’s beauty while actually getting soaked in rain. Or plan a visit to nearby hill station – fog, mist, waterfalls will drown you down in their mesmerizing views. Waterfalls around you will be so many that your group can actually get a personal one. Lip smacking plate of locally served onion pakodas and steaming hot tea will surely be cherry on the top.

Rains are enjoyable from home too. There is no pleasure like watching it rain like cats and dogs from your window while sipping your customized self-brewed cup of coffee. Birds fluttering their drenched wings and Animals seeking shelter, Car wipers waving all the way and bikes snaking through the pot holes, Kids jumping into the water puddles and adults trying to completely avoid them, Farmers thanking the rain god and regular office commuters blaming him for the wrong timings. This makes for a perfect rainy day scenario.

Rain sometimes transforms the easy daily routine into a nasty one. Daily commute to office has to bear the burden of huge traffic jams. Walking in the rain is yet another task – adjusting the umbrella according to the direction of wind and walking slowly and carefully in order to avoid getting mud painting done on the clothes. Rainy season surely makes one put their creative hats on and develop their own sartorial style that can either hide the mud paintings completely or can at least dry them off sooner if you have to erase them. Despite of all this, i think, the uncertainty that the rain brings in, definitely adds to the thrill of it.

As a kid, I remember, my joy knew no bounds when it rained too heavily. Getting to bunk the school and spend entire day playing in it, sailing colorful paper boats through the rivers flowing all around, will always remain a fond memory.

Well, I can simply go on and on, wax lyricing about it. I am completely head over heels and rainy season makes me fall in love with itself over and over again.
If something refreshes me more than the cup of coffee, it is surely the howling wind, pitter patter raindrops,dancing trees and the romantic weather.